Unconventional Year

I have looked at a lot of blogs to get ideas for design and to decide on my focus. One thing that I have seen a few times and LOVE is a list of what people want to do in their __ year. It's a fun way to get to know what makes people tick and cheer them on as they get to check things off the list. So, naturally I started to think about what would be on my list and had some Pinterest like ideas as well as spiritual, emotional and physical goals. Soon though I started to feel a heaviness and began to question how I might sabotage this great idea.
You see, I have a tendency to be very critical of myself. Not in a helpful motivate toward self improvement but a debilitating self talk that can leave me feeling pretty beat up after a seemingly normal task. Therefore, after much thinking I decided to still make a list for my 29th year, I really do love the idea, but mine is a bit unconventional. I have a list of a few things I am going to do and more things that I am not. As you help me tackle this list keep in mind I am walking into uncharted territory this next year becoming a mom and family of 3 (4 with Olive ;).

1. I will give myself grace and fight critical self talk
2. I will be thankful everyday for at least one thing
3. I will not measure myself by efficiency or number of things checked off my list
4. I will go a whole week without a list (vacation doesn't count)
5. I will be aware of the "shoulds" I have and challenge them instead of giving in
6. I will compete in a duathalon in 2014
7. I will indulge myself in morning smiles and not rush to start the day
8. I will practice saying "no" so that I can say yes to the things our family needs
9. I will relish in being a family of 3 and take time to record the moments
10. I will surround myself with positive/encouraging people as I journey into motherhood
11. We will continue date nights up to and after having the baby- difficult but I am fighting for this one
12. I will give myself time and space to discover Megan as wife and now mom. Preferably over an Irish Cream Latte.

I think that's enough. I recognize that these would not meet standards for SMART goals, not being measurable, but I plan to make that part of the journey. Blogging on what goes well and where I struggle. After all, what is the point of a teachable spirit if I act like I have it all figured out.